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I hate ‘marriage’! I hate that feeling of being under a law of some sort…”under lock and key”, “consciously committed”, “culturally bound” and “constitutionally bounded”……I could go on and on and by the way, I am not promiscuous. I hate things that are made legitimately compulsory by the society that we belong to. They remind you continuously that you are someone’s ‘property’, you cannot take decisions on your own, people own you…you have to commit to please everyone because they own you and could take decisions against you…..I fear these controlled subjugations.

I fear that I am not that type of woman that you can lock and keep or some sort of property….like that ugly chair in my sitting room or that beautiful swiss wristwatch on my dressing table that I would never wear but just look at. I fear that I may be one in a million type of woman who isn’t crazy about belonging to someone or some people. I fear that I may be judged wrongly, misinterpreted, misunderstood or mistaken not to be the daughter of my father.

I love love! Love is free, not in bondage or like my inner mind would think “handcuffed and jailed”. Love is air….you know when you go to the sea side…the breeze, the fresh air …you cannot hold it Love makes you feel on top of the world…talk any how without holding anything back or . It is realistic, understanding and care free.

You know, these past ten years have been for me like a ‘coming of age’ thing. I have learnt so much, done so much and ‘wised up’ so much too. At some point, I would say nothing to myself and just be me. I couldn’t feel pain and would only whenever I want to….I have grown to be in control of everything around me and if the pain decides to go let it go. Let it go! I learnt to let things go consciously and unconsciously.

For the next years, We will be happier, take one day at a time, think less about marriage, love more, put ourselves before the kids more, take vacations together or separately, give more of each other, eat healthier and most of all pray more for each other.

I look forward to more adventures and magical times…………….

I love LOVE when it is not overly coated with glitters or chocolate…..

I love you!